Complication

Feel like shit
Cant do shit
What is wrong with me
Why did i do it
Why WHY WHY WHY
I try to fake it
Life is too hard
But i just cant take it
Enoch-
but bitches is all i need and money drives me to drown in pussst

Feel

How can someone really feel sympathy for someone if they do not know half the story? Isn't feeling what makes humans different from animals? Well, animals have feelings, but ain't human meant to be masters of emotions because we think we are empowered with rationality?
It is evident that people are incapable of showing sympathy. People are dying out there in the world and you just give a plain comment "it's because they are savage". No, it's not because they are savages that they are at war.  They have feelings too. It is just that people do not acknowledge their emotions. No one can really understood the true injustice behind everything that is inflicted upon them. God or mothers or whatever did not bring life to this world so that they get killed.
Whoever created life, let me ask you these questions:
Is this an interesting play, novel, film to you?
Does watching us suffer bring joy to you?
If you have a little  moral sense, why can't just help out and resolve some of these problems?

I'm beginning to think that people are created as an experiment for god. Or maybe god just needs some enjoyment by watching us. You know watching others people suffer brings joy to some people.

Falling slowly

I don't know you but I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me and always fool me
And I can't react

And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You've made it known

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
The moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black

Well, you have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You've made it known

Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Excuse me for the plagiarism, but it is a song that has.accompanied through the last few days. It is a great comfort and i kinda suspect i heard it.from a korean drama before. It whas more potential than a korean drama of course.

Maybe falling is life, well at least first part of.life. The next part will.be homr.you.climb back up. Life is a race against time. Just.make it happen.

Bookshelf

People from.my generation don't read, I am just one of the special people who found the joy within books. It is enticing and fascinating. Books are limitless as to.what they contain, because the main elements within a book lies within the imagination of the reader. If the reader can't find their space for imagination, then they wouldnt be able to understand the art within books.
Here is a list of the books i.must have on my book shelf in the future:
catcher in the rye
brave new world
old man and the sea
of mice and men
anna karenina
1984
fahrenheit 451
picture of dorian gray
dr jekyll and.mr.hyde
the sense of an ending
pride and prejudice
sherlock.holmes
there will.be more to.come

thank god

THANKS TO.SOJU, IM FINALLY OUT OF THE SHIT STATE I WAS HAVING FOR 2 DAYS. MAN IM NOT GONNA SAY ILL.NEVER TAKE WEED AGAIN BUT AFTER JUST 3 HOURS OF SUBCONSCIOUS CONTROL, MY MOOD WAS MADE SHIT FOR 2 FUCKING DAYS. FOR FUCK SAKES DION. HAHA IM NOT BLAMING YOU, IM.KEEN FOR NEXT TIME IS ALL I HAVE TL SAY.

HOWEVER, THE THING IS I APPEAR TO.BE MORE HIGH WHEN.I DONT TAKE WEED IT IS. MY LIFE WORKS UPON THE CONTRARY, DICHOTMY OF THE FIXTURES IS WHAT I WOULD SAY.

svydrjaqd

Seriously is this the product of someone who fails to conform? Or is it that i just can't even talk about anything.meaningful with anyone? Does every conversation i have cant manage to.find itself through the greetings and find its way to some.other terrains? Seriously, not.a single person, like.not.even a guy. like fucking why.
fuck sakes

Move

I need to get out of this place. Before, i have this belief that Australia is the best place in the world due to its peaceful nature. But, i dont feel it anymore. Somehow peace irritates me. Being peaceful equals no arguments but wouldnt that also mean no life. Life is simply conflict. More accurately it is one's struggle to.defeat or overcome conflict. But how can we do.it when there is no.conflict in Australia. I want to start fresh in a place with no money, no shelter, no nothing. I honestly wouldnt mind spending part of.my life living in the subway station feeding off bread crumbs which may be days overdue. People in Australia thinks that you.will.die.just by eating that. No fucking way man look at Africans they are living fine. Well not the fine we define but they are happy in their own ways. Australia has been stagnant for too long it is not a place for dreams. Itll be time to.move on soon.