Incomplete

After all these happens, I told myself that it is indeed time to get over it all. But, there is a vague sense of dissatisfaction that keeps on telling me that i should do something more about it. For 1 and a half years, my interest, my effort and my struggle. It seemed like i have done nothing for it. Time is telling me that i need to something more to it. Some that may be confronting or rather outrageous. Instead of trying to playing it safe, I need to do something and take risks. In the end, playing it safe and playing it outrageously have the same consequence. This leads me to consider maybe i shouldve been ruthless from the very start. So next time I promise my self. I will break through the barrier and add something else, before adding a full stop. I need to put a full stop cause a new paragraph can start.

Me in 10 years

To me in 10 years time,

I would like to see you develop something that characterises yourself, instead of being a peaceable asshole. You need to make your own life work for yourself, instead of trying and stealing parts from other people's life. In 10 years, I would like you to cast away the juvenile ways and live as a man, live as someone who takes responsibility and also risk. You are expected to have already quit smoking and begin to have your own family. That is, you have found your happiness and stay committed in it. I have no doubt in you being loyal because loyalty is one of the very skill that Elton mastered. I hope you have not lost that skill and instead become a dick-head. I've expected to have settled down and found yourself a job. I would like to see my own son or daughter and the fact that you are a loving father. I would like you to overcome your annoyance with dogs. 

In 10 years, I will come again and look at this .

See ya.

Start

If i was going to go back in time, where would i start? From the very beginning? Or maybe half way through? Or maybe just recently where things haven't been too well for me? I don't know. I don't know where i would start. I am rather scared about this miraculous opportunity that is given. The fact every decisions you make when you go to the past. Every step would be different. Lets say you decide to "correct" one part in your life, there will be a chain reaction that changes every other aspect of your life. The end result of the change maybe more disastrous than planned. I think this desire to go back and change life is futile.

Sorry

I don't really like this concept of being sorry about something, especially about being sorry for a mistake I have made. I am not a stubborn person and admit to my faults but I would not be sorry for it. Please note, admitting to the fault and being sorry for the fault are two different concepts in my constitution because, when you are sorry you feel  guilty about what you did.
Sorry is an unnecessary ingredient in life. My point is that we do not have to feel sorry for the mistakes we have made, because, in all honesty, we all knew that we would not regret the decision  made at the moment we did it. Sorry parallels strongly with regret and people should not regret the decision they have made. Hearken this "Unpolished, Unapologetic- might have broke a heart or two but gave an honest effort". One should be proud about the decision they have made despite the fact that it hurt someone. Life isn't a game where everyone wins. It is a battlefield where some wins and some loses. To state a harsh fact, people "claim victory when malice is on the verge of sinning". Do you win by being sorry?
Well, that's pretty asshole way at looking at life. I'm not malignant so let's ignore the morals behind claiming victory whilst sinning. I'll focus on this question. Where does sorry get you? You think that being sorry will gain you acceptance than think again. You do not redeem yourself by being sorry. I don't know about you, but, in the eyes of my god, he does not forgive you for your sins just because you are sorry for committing. He does not judge you by the sincerity for the mistake you have made. He judges you by your character and the way you have redeemed for the mistake you have made. You have to win his heart through showing yourself that you are a changed man, not being negotiating about how bad you felt about what you did. And again, in his argument, you weren't feeling so sorry when you did it.
Another example of the ineffectiveness of being sorry is Aboriginal History. Yes, I am drawing another reference from my study of English, this time it is Noel Pearson. He specified that reconciliation is not about the being sorry. He criticised the action of "apportioning guilt and blame" and making the justice that exists within reconciliation appears cheap. No one is going to get over something just because you said sorry.
I just want you to know, I don't like the fact that people are simply saying sorry for everything.

The Sun

The Sun is a magnificent structure that holds the physics of this world together. It is beautiful because people, organisms and life are able to live under its support. There is also this celebration about its ability to hold the solar system without the collapse of all planets and stars and every other things out in space, discovered or undiscovered. But what is the purpose of the sun? Only a very foolish person will tell you that the role of the sun is to maintain the heat on earth for animals, or for photosynthesis, or other benefits they bring to the people. Is that true? Well, precisely no, because people consider it as an inanimate objects, and inanimate objects are don't have feelings or thinking processes so they have no set purpose that it tries to achieve. Well, other people argue that the Sun is made for destruction, but someone how it failed. Look whatever its purpose is it doesn't really matter. We should just appreciate its existence and preserve it. Yes yes. My point being nothing matters when its good just acknowledge that its good.

Chiemney

Welllllll, this is dedicated to V. Chiem for his stupidity. I wouldn't say something like this directly in his face, but Ill just comment this post. Well, the major problem i guess is that the suppression by his parents. He was forced into doing subjects that he never really dreamed to do. Parents are blinded by their predictions. Why, because they think that "they have eaten more rice "than the younger people, believing that their wisdom overrules all forms of society. Well, let me reassure to parents who are chained to this belief, you are wrong. You may have eaten more rice, but we no longer eat the same kind of rice. You ate jasmine rice, now we eat genetically modified normal rice that taste like jasmine rice. My point is society has changed and you guys are no longer capable to move with this change. It is just a simple process in life, which everyone follows. In future we will undergo the same process.

Enough about parents, here v stop being so fucking annoying. Stop asxking people for infite amount of help. You are wasting other people's time, which means the lives of other people. Just sit down and think about it yourself. You still cant get it then suffer alone.

Hoping

When you think too much, you should start hoping then. Hope for a moment we're everything you think about will be overturned. Hope for that moment you can just say fuck you to everything that is happening around you. People just need that moment to just hope, pray and aspire for something better. People should stop devising ways to improve their lives instead they should just let go and let God or maybe an unknown entity to deal with yourself. Well as a matter of fact nothing in yourself is about yourself so you should just let go.