Next step

Taking a step forward so I'm going to start a new blog. I'm going to name it Welcome to forever because we are always moving constantly moving forward towards future but we always want to live and enjoy some of the current moment forever. So come and have a look at

tomorrowforus.blogspot.com

Next step

Taking a step forward so I'm going to start a new blog. I'm going to name it Welcome to forever because we are always moving constantly moving forward towards future but we always want to live and enjoy some of the current moment forever. So come and have a look at

tomorrowforus.blogspot.com

Savage

It's clear that people need to be educated or disciplined. That's the conclusion I made as I waited for a bus in Windsor. Windsor is what people would consider the downtown. It is too distant from the majority of the city that it began to construct it's own governance. Their education and legal system are based upon that of the state's however it is loosely focused compared to other parts of Sydney.
It was a frightful image when coming across a handful of school kids who appeared to be much younger than me. However they behaved in ways which was very different to homebush boys high school or any other schools within the mainland. I would say that was the first step to terrorism throwing pop bombs on each others. It seemed that it's alright. But deep down I'm worried for them. What if something bad happened to one person in their group? What if there's a casualty? One person  became blind from these pop bombs? Whose gonna take the responsibility? And then they live with that guilt for the rest of their lives.
Education please shed light and tame these savages.

Nice & kind

Everyone can be nice. It's the truth, it is not hard to be nice or even just pretend to be nice. But many people choose not to. Why? Well, being too kind and nice makes you more vulnerable more susceptible to torments and insults and also schemes of others.
People do treat kind people as meat. They think that it is okay to toss and throw away the heart that was offered to them. And as a simple fact kind people suffer more than anyone else. Because they live in the hope and faith that people could be like themselves with an open heart.
Never has it been true, but kind people don't like to face reality. Reality are somewhat frightful to them and being kind can be regarded as secondary form of escapism .
This form of escapism transforms all their depression and suffering into a delusional gratification. By being nice, they force themselves to believe that everyone else is the same.
Most people don't understand. Neither do I.

Beast

There seems to be a subdued beast, whose has been put to sleep for the great cause of the society  But for some reason, it's sleep has been disturbed, it's peace has been brought to an end. He begins to hunt and venture into the realms of darkness. He craves the insecurity of others and is willing to dominate them until their bones shatters, their blood splatters on the surrounding. That beast wants to play but he knows he shouldn't. That beast wants more than that though. He wants the world to know that he is strong, better than anyone else, scarier than anyone else. But he hid it all his life  and now comes to the point that he is exposed to distress. His true nature unravels. His true nature will do all he wants to regain his sense of security. There is more to it. It isn't just a beast.

New

Next stop university
It will be a long wait until then and what I need to do is to recreate myself there. People say university is the place where you find your identity. A place where you do the things you love and take upon your own responsibility.
I have completed the hsc and I am willing to make a new start. Things began to change I'm getting some freedom. But at the same time I get new restriction as well. But it's alright in the end. We need to obey the rules and I don't really feel like fighting against such instructions.
Recently, friendship problem rises between people. I'm not really involved with any of those kind of problem. I have always been a neutral guy as in I'm never in a condition which leads into fights and intense argument.  Maybe except one occasion with harry trieu, which I felt bad doing. Well it's a new start soon so I need to say goodbye to some aspect of the past.

Lonely

Being lonely, is it a good thing or a bad thing? This is currently on my mind because these days after I gained some of my rights as a eighteen year old I began to turn to seek for peace. Somehow I find pleasure being by myself and watch those around me. It never occurred before. I always wanted to be with people or at least have someone to kill time with. However now it seems perhaps I need to time to myself where I learn more about my own body. Or a time I can just sit there by the park, at the bus stop or somewhere quiet and just think. Think about my own life and how lonely I've become.