Saturday, 27 June 2015

mum

I could never really thought much about parents and family.until today. My stepmom got drunk.today and she began talking about how i should be more considerate about my mum. She said i should put my.mom.before her as in the end she is the illegitimate one. She was really pitiful and the fact I am saying this makes her even more pitiful. She has been struck with the most injustice of all. She got.divorced, bore a girl who is a bitch and in the end ends up with my father. She deserves and it led me to question that whether life is fair or not.
I dont really like to talk about my own mother. I just think she had too much role in my gynophobia. Its the past and i know i should get over it. It is a taboo. Well to my family they never took note of it. I had concealed it well for some time.

Friday, 26 June 2015

Fool

Don't be a fool  for the city lights? Yes, people shouldn't be a fool for what they aspire, because they will become distracted from their real intentions in life, to survive within the environment. In a way, I am relating it to my life. I have been blinded by my ambition to overrule most people that i began to be insensitive to other people's emotion. In some way, my dad's principles have influenced me. It appears to be true that I inherit parts of my father. His self-righteousness is becoming a part of me. I don't like the feeling but it is an instinctive response to things and matter. There is an overwhelming desire within people that initiates people's motive to "wreck" and dominate others. It is innate within human.

Wednesday, 24 June 2015

control

what people want is control. They require control in almost every part of their life. I am not talking about control as in dominance over other people although it plays a small part within control. More specifically, I am talking how people can grapple with their own life. Control is the ability to manifest one's own desire, and at most time it fails. Only a few people in this world that can have control of their lives. It is not the prime minister, nor is it his fellow parliament. It is neither rich nor is it the most resourceful person. It is the weak and poor they can have absolute control the control of their mind.

Monday, 22 June 2015

Indifference

I have to do well.  More like, I need to do well in tomorrow's exam. I have put in so much effort on this assessment. I have asked for help. And, I tell you, I am not the type that is willing to ask. To be honest with you, it does hurt my pride sometimes, because I am a man, a man who has strong principles about his own life. I wouldn't go about asking people questions, because i keep my business to myself and I also keep other people's business that involves me to themselves. I do like to get involved in gossips. Because gossips and shit talk are fun. Despite the immorality and ethics issues associated with it, it does bring joy and entertainment to people.