BORED

Life is actually so boring like sooooo boring. It is so boring. Probably because i have nothing in my mind to aspire towards. But it is way to boring for me to deal with. I don't know what i should do man. Pretty much finished exams but then dad still force me to sit on the study desk for hours. It would be alright a few weeks ago as i was kinda living in my own imagination, but these days it doesnt really work as i have no dreams nor do i have any aspiration. My life is only filled with platitude. Half of it is my fault i guess, I don't want to engage in human connection but simultaneously i want to have some sort of connection.. Its just that i dont want to be the only one who is active. Ceeebs

mapping

I am sick and tired going back to the start. Its like all the streets i follow, i always end up at the start over and over again. Like an mise en abyss, things keep repeating. I keep stumble and walk in circles and end up back at where i started. Some people say that is alright to get back to the start because each road you take is different. But it wouldn't work for me the road i took are the same each time. The first and second i took it was enlightening. But after that, it is just a tedious walk now. Can someone come into my life and add a new road that show me something totally new? Please.