Stage 1- MASLOW

Stage 1 of Maslow's hierarchy of needs states that people would need to satisfy their physiological needs- needs that are deemed to be important for human survival. These needs include water, food, shelter, sleep and, interesting enough, the fulfilment of sexual instinct. Fulfilment of the sexual instinct is not define as sexual pleasure in this, instead it recalls the importance of mortality and birth rates. This is essential for the survival of humanity. As a human, our ability to pass on our blood is crucial within physiological means. This is not a problem for people in developed countries. Like me and other million in Australia, the stage one of our needs is fulfilled effortlessly. The government has provided the whole nation with an equal starting place for these needs. That is to say, people begin where their need is satisfied. In fact, people in developed countries live in a place where there is an abundance of the physiological means. Which leads me to the question: where do the homeless people on the streets of Strathfield, Burwood or Hornsby come from? This is an evidence for the lack of commitment by the government. Abbott's party is trying to rob away the rights of Australian people. For fuck sakes, we should get rid of him already.

Lion and Hare

A lion ruled a land of the fair,

Brave and strong,

Terror struck the land of the wild

And peace would even disturb the bear.

One day, a hare brushed past this plain,

Small, but, strong,

She faced the lion with very little

fear for her master is named Jane.

The sun glared down,

Rain never fell

For months and years

Under the terrors of the lion.

But, that day, storm struck the land,

Water engulfed the field,

Animals cry in more terror,

As the water washed away the sand.

The lion stood upon the sand and salt,

He saw the hare who passed by,

He question,

"Is this rain to be your fault?"

"No, your valiant Lord"

Hare sang in denial

"For this rain to come

As for the purpose of a reward."

Change

People say that I am changing. I do not deny it, but, I am hesitant to say whether it is a good thing or a bad thing. Honestly, I cannot see these changes. It is difficult to see these changes, because, most people like me, don't really like changes. It is like asking a narcissistic person to see any flaws on his face. He wouldn't be able to see it, not even a single indent. He is blinded by his belief of his perfection. I am like that in a way, but, I do believe that I can be changed. The forces of nature and society is too overpowered for one to resist.
People say that I am less attentive to their emotions and feelings. That is not true. I smell sadness that lurks from people. I hear screams within their minds. I notice it all, but I never get the chance to act. And, sometimes, when I try to reach out, I get pushed away. I am not complaining, nor am I trying to excuse my change. It is just that people should understand I am there for them, even when I cannot talk to them.
I have not changed to push people away. I guess my change will only be temporary. Ill be myself after HSC.

Curves

If i was to represent my life in a curve, what would it be? Would it be a linear relation? If it were, would be increasing or decreasing? Would it be continuous? Would it be finite? Obviously, there will be a start and an end. Life starts at the age of zero and ends whenever i die. Which leads me to another important part of the graph, the axes. Would my axes represent life and happiness respectively? Not necessarily, I can draw it with the variables of sins vs good deeds. If i was to draw my life on this graph, it would look very similar to y=x however with minor fluctuations going up and down. Why is this so? I hold the belief of retribution to the means very dear. For every bad deed you do, a good deed would happen in exchange. For every good deed you do, you will have a flaw in some way. The minor fluctuation is due to occurrence at different times. They do not happen simultaneously, there is always a time and space. They will happen but at different times.

You

I think I like you? For the most part of the past, I was uncertain about my feelings towards you. It was a sort of confusion that remains unresolved until you really want to do something about it. Yes, this confusion of mine fails to fade away. It stays with me and is still waiting to be resolved. However, recently, I begin to feel something more than confusion. It is even harder to make out what it is. It is more like the feeling of missing my mum; however, I have been quite unsensitized to it. But, I do think there is something more than that. I just feel really secure when I am with you. I feel like that there is something more to it than that. Honestly, I thought about starting something with you. Would I be wrong? I often try to sing to myself “Am I wrong for thinking that we could be something for real?” I don't think so. I’m keeping this crush to myself I guess. There is a certain level of romance in unrequited love and it is somewhat artistic to a degree. It feels very dear to me in a way.

Suicide

Suicide? I used to think about this before, reflecting upon such thoughts now it is just stupidity. Just a general advice for all the people out in the world, don't think about suicide it's not worth it.
It is true for some people days may be hard due to problems with families, problems with friends, problems at work, problems at school. But I wouldn't suicide if I was having a hard time and everything is out of my control. I would like to tell you, nothing in life is in your control. Like jehovah's said, the universe belongs to Satan. We are the works of God, but we dwell in the creation of the devil. We must put up a good fight against the devil and not give in to him. For those people who are giving in their lives due to the hard time, you are giving in to the devil and you will have an even worse time after you die- no matter where you go. Fight the devil. Fight against life. Stay strong and stay alive. Have faith. Someone will always be there to guide you. Love you.