Change

People say that I am changing. I do not deny it, but, I am hesitant to say whether it is a good thing or a bad thing. Honestly, I cannot see these changes. It is difficult to see these changes, because, most people like me, don't really like changes. It is like asking a narcissistic person to see any flaws on his face. He wouldn't be able to see it, not even a single indent. He is blinded by his belief of his perfection. I am like that in a way, but, I do believe that I can be changed. The forces of nature and society is too overpowered for one to resist.
People say that I am less attentive to their emotions and feelings. That is not true. I smell sadness that lurks from people. I hear screams within their minds. I notice it all, but I never get the chance to act. And, sometimes, when I try to reach out, I get pushed away. I am not complaining, nor am I trying to excuse my change. It is just that people should understand I am there for them, even when I cannot talk to them.
I have not changed to push people away. I guess my change will only be temporary. Ill be myself after HSC.