mapping

I am sick and tired going back to the start. Its like all the streets i follow, i always end up at the start over and over again. Like an mise en abyss, things keep repeating. I keep stumble and walk in circles and end up back at where i started. Some people say that is alright to get back to the start because each road you take is different. But it wouldn't work for me the road i took are the same each time. The first and second i took it was enlightening. But after that, it is just a tedious walk now. Can someone come into my life and add a new road that show me something totally new? Please.